Ok, I’m not ready. I’m a failure as a mom. Don’t get me wrong… I love my kids… but sometimes I am just not strong enough. I have an ADD child with high anxiety. So high that he isn’t sleeping at night after prescribed medicine. Which means I don’t sleep and I lose focus. So much so, that my child who really has to know how to type by the time school starts… can’t. And I basically have 3 weeks to get it into gear. He hasn’t written, typed or done much more than fun stuff. Don’t get me wrong… we needed the break but what is going to happen when schools starts? I was reading Bou’s post on The Future… and wanted to cry. Her link didn’t work, but here is a working copy for the Article on ADHD she mentions. Last year was so horrible. Making decisions to put my son on medication… dealing with meltdowns by the other son with hypoglycemia… having my ADD son come down from his medication about the time he gets home from school and deal with the emotions of that… the nice part was there wasn’t homework to add to it because he could focus at school and get it done… but still a son who was losing focus and didn’t like the feelings.
I only have a few weeks left. It’s not enough time. I’ve been praying about so many things that this fell off the plate. Not just in my life but in my prayers. I just can’t focus. I will. I have no choice. The worst part is trying to see the good stuff as you live through all the other stuff. I can do it… sometimes I just forget… Ya’ll just keep reminding me ok?