One Happy Dog Speaks

I have been trying to lose weight for years now. Not at all successfully. And now my oldest is soon to be 10… I realize there is a possibility in 10 years he might get married. At the rate I’m gaining, I’ll be looking for plus size mother of the groom dresses for his wedding. I am not consistent in my trying to lose weight. I think I’m going to have to break down and spend money. I am very consistent if I spend money on something. Though a gym won’t do it. I did try a gym for 3 months and … nothing… I really did go. I just did not enjoy it and at the end of the three months I didn’t want to go back.

I’ll let you know what happens… once I decide what I’m going to do.

Or the problems that occur when you gain weight. I’m the heaviest I have ever been. Sucks to be me. I was on prednizone for 5 weeks. Yep… I couldn’t keep the weight off. I am heavy to start with and this just sucks. I didn’t gain a lot… don’t get me wrong… but an extra 5 pounds is a whole dress size for me. And being 5′… that much weight shows ALL over. Right around Christmas. My favorite time. Giving of gifts and lots and lots of wonderful food. Sigh. I wonder if those bioidentical hormone replacement therapy for holistic weight loss would work for me? Naa. I’m sure eating right and better exercising would do it. Back to taking my vitamins and drinking water…

My boys begged me to be in a triathlon coming up. So today I signed them up. Hopefully this will work better than fat burners to get this weight off. I have decided exercise is the right way to eat what I want and not gain weight. Of course eating right and exercising would take it off… but we’ll do this in baby steps. Every time I have earnestly tried to lose weight, I gain more. Must be psychological. Something about losing weight seems to make me do something that causes me to gain.

Then again, having bronchitis with a nasty sinus infection keeps me from doing a lot of exercising but doesn’t stop the eating. Sigh.. I’ll get there. I keep working at it.

or is that Pounds of Pleasure. Harvey made a comment on THIS POST about how I had a very ‘womanly’ figure. I do. And that picture for some reason actually makes me look skinner than I really am… and that is ok with me. I fuss about my weight because I can. If I go to the doctor and look at my BMI and all that ‘stuff’… I am in the obese category. No joke. Go take another look at that picture. Seriously.

Do I want to lose weight? Yes. Why? Because I want to be as healthy as I can to live as long as I can to annoy my children. Ok, really… it is because I want to take care of my body and have a good life when I get older. I post a lot about weight loss because it annoys me when I see all these links and commercials about losing weight by taking a pill. No. It doesn’t work that way. I must stop eating as much junk, eat more stuff that is good for my body and… here is the big one… do cardiovascular exercise! I exercise… I just don’t do a lot of cardio. I do more now than I have in the past, but not nearly enough.

Add to that I have a new job, still have the household and children to take care of and a hubby to pamper (occasionally) and life left me no room. I need to make room. I had made room… then I got the job… now I have to figure out the shift. What to give up and when. Without giving up what I have as a mother and a wife. Sucks to be me some days. A lot of it has to do with a low immune system and taking on a new job brought a bunch of new germs. I have been sick for 2 weeks now. On antibiotics for two weeks and still not well. Makes it hard to get much of anything done… much less the thought of exercise makes me cringe.

Enough for now. I will continue to fuss about weight loss because it is a part of my life and something I am very aware of in my life. I’ll try to tune it down though. Sigh.

My youngest keeps me hopping. He is into running right now. Since he can’t run that far, I run with him versus riding my bike. I much prefer bike riding for my legs, knees and ankles. Still, we go more than a mile while running and walking and he loves it. I love being with him. He will want to hold my hand or talk about the stuff we see. I find it very… precious, special, unique, wonderful… you get the idea. And in his most serious voice and earnest face, he is jogging beside me yesterday and

Youngest says “Look, you are getting skinnier already”. **Oh wait for it… there’s more… **
I reply “It takes more than one day of running to get skinnier”
Youngest says “No really, look! Your stomach isn’t sticking out as far as your boobs! You are getting skinnier as we run!”

Folks, I almost tripped. I was not expecting that response. I will treasure it always. What a kid. He certainly knows how to make me smile deep down inside.

One: Have sick kids. Lack of sleep by staying up most of the night will prevent weight loss from happening.

Two: Don’t read diet pill reviews because it will just depress you and wish that they really worked.

Three: Have sweets in the house. Hide or remove all chocolate (I’m an eater when I’m stressed).

Four: Stop exercising. Continue to try and get some cardio exercise in if you can. It helps.

Ok, that concludes are lessons in what not to do when losing weight.

I must be more worried about my weight than I thought. I’m actually following stuff on the web about Acai and reading it. I just saw some new thing… nuphedragen and went to read it. I think it was this last one that made me stop and go “Whoa!”. If my weight is that important, then I need to eat better and cut out all sweets. Suddenly… I quit looking at all the stuff, laughed and went and found some chocolate. Yep. I want to be in shape, not sickly skinny with the shakes. Hmmm .. . reminds me of a chihuahua I saw recently!

The boys have mohawks. Talk about cute and funny at the same time. I am avoiding the dying of the hair so far. The youngest wants his purple and the oldest wants his blue. Not that I am against dying it, but because they are getting ready to get swim lessons in a public pool. I can’t imagine what the chlorine would do to the hair dye.

I am looking forward to going back to the pool. There were some gorgeous men (and women) at the pool. Yep, must say it was definitely some fine eye candy. Though I remember some of the moms talking about how they dieted and went swimming to keep the weight off. One said something about buy phentermine to do it and another talked about some other pill. It was very confusing. All I know is before I got married I tried one of these eating suppressants which also had a stimulant in it and I was totally off my rocker. Only 2 days and I quit those things. Figured I was going to be bouncing off the ceiling in one more day and I still kept eating. So I may not be eye candy for others, but no one says I can’t enjoy those who are!!!

Wow, I was away four days from my family. It was relaxing and sad all at the same time. I loved being away and not having to do much but I missed hearing my boys and getting my daily hugs (from all 3). Though if you want to know how to lose weight fast don’t ask me. On vacation I’m surprised I didn’t gain 10 pounds. We ate out a lot. I even had an icee… An honest to goodness coke icee that I haven’t had in years. Yummmeeee.

I must say it was sad to miss my son’s first tooth lost. Yep, my youngest lost his first tooth on Saturday as I was flying home. He begged me to take a picture when I got home. I laughed at his expressions but they all look like this (click to enlarge):

Luckily the tooth fairy remembered to stop by because I was asleep by 8:30pm. I was exhausted.

The youngest was so excited in the morning… he got a gold dollar coin and a dollar bill. He had to go tell dad (who was sleeping), that he had a gold coin with washington on the front and the statue of liberty on the back. What a great tooth fairy.

Why doesn’t raising children cause weight loss? I remember my mom being so skinny when I was growing up. I totally get it. She never ate. And if she got stressed she ate even less than never. Yes, I realize what I’m saying. She did not pass this gene on to me. You would think just raising children would be give you a ton of weight loss products… laundry, washing, cleaning bathrooms, homework, sports, and more. Always on the move. Know what I found out? It is not a high enough cardiovascular activity when you do those things. And if you are like me and eat sweets when stressed… along with the lack of cardio activity… you get FAT, OBESE… yes I am saying the ‘bad’ words. Most people don’t realize how large I am. Talking to a friend today who was complaining she was a size 10 now… caused me to explain I’m a size 14. She stopped, stepped back and looked. No I don’t look that big. Guess what. I am.

I have been loosing weight when I get/do the following items:

1. enough sleep
2. bike rides
3. cut down on sweets.

Pretty much guaranteed that I will lose weight. Lately I have been able to keep it off. I just can’t stay consistent in the sleep/bike riding. Which stresses me out and causes me to start eating more sweets. Vicious, ugly cycle. I keep working at it. One day I will get past it. I just hope that day is before I’m 50. Ok, enough for tonight.